emilita: (pic#8195246)
And it started with its typical controversy. Ahhhh, it's been too long.

I've been stressing about whether I should take the possible promotion, and have gotten absolutely nowhere. I just waffle back and forth and can't decide if I'd be able to deal with the pressure and responsibility of dealing with benefits and everything. This is a situation that hasn't even come to fruition yet, and I'm already having anxiety. Yeesh.

I've been making strides in my physical fitness, and while it's encouraging, I'm not seeing as much improvement in the POTS and fibromyalgia symptoms as I wanted. My joints still feel like they're moving around too much, I have random aches and pains, the dizziness and orthostatic intolerance have been steady, and the CFS is still dragging me down. I'm seeing some good things, like I have an increased amount of energy and endurance, but overall it's underwhelming. I'll stick with it though, and I'm working on improving my diet, along with the squat challenge and core workouts. Hopefully, it'll get better, because I'm so tired of dealing with the my body falling apart.

The good news! Cats are back where they belong, and Skids has gotten over his cold and is back to causing trouble. Nothing horrible has happened at work, and we're actually getting raises in October (negligible, but it'll help). I'm... thinking... of moving out soon. It'll be very hard, since the idea of a living wage in public health is a joke, but I've been looking around and doing calculations. We'll see.
emilita: (Default)
I've been restarting my exercise routine over the last week, and I'm definitely feeling it. I'm now 7 days into this "squat challenge" thing that gets you up to 200 squats in 4 weeks. Today I did 80. I'm also trying to run more, and found ab workout exercises that actually make me feel sore afterwards. I'm starting to think I've never used my ab muscles before in my life.

Travel shit is still ongoing. My friend has taken over trying to bully the airline, since I've been fighting with everyone since we started planning the trip, so thank fuck for her. We're pretty sure that our other friend is not talking to us at the moment, because she was the hold out who said that we should still go. She wasn't allowed to go alone after we pulled out, though, so I'm thinking that she checked out and is letting us handle it since we messed things up for her, or something. I... don't really care, though, since I'd rather be dealing with trouble like this than be over there at the moment. The West Bank is getting more and more violent, and this conflict is not ending any time soon.

We don't know much more about how my client died. The last I heard, it was a heart attack, but they weren't sure. There hasn't been a memorial planned yet, though Crisis has said that they want to have something. The PRP might do a memorial for several clients that died within the last year, which would be nice. Nothing concrete as of yet.

Watching Real Madrid at the moment. The good thing is that this trophy doesn't matter, and if we had to lose a trophy, I'd definitely want it to be this one. Bad thing is, I also thought we were the better team against Inter and Roma, so the fact that we are losing sucks. I really want the season to start :(.
emilita: (Default)
Well, my weekend was awesome. Germany won the World Cup and I screamed and cried. That's the Champions League and the World Cup in the same year :). My dad claims that if the Orioles win the World Series, he owes me dinner.

I'm already missing soccer, and can't wait until club season starts back up again. Right now, all I want is for transfer season to be over so that I can stop stressing that all my favorites are in danger of leaving.

Work has been going decently, especially since I took Monday off. I was nearing definitely already at murder bitch mode, since I hadn't taken a mental health day since February. But today was much calmer, and groups went really well. I'm still playing catch up on paperwork, but that's the norm here. Paperwork is overflowing and time with the clients is put on the back burner (wonderful way to run a public health organization, yes?). Whatever. We had a good day, let's stick to the positives.

The negative is that I think I might have to go on another med. I went off of a second antidepressant last April, which screwed me up for a while, but it generally seemed to be ok. Problem is that since late last year, I've been getting more and more anxiety attacks. It's to the point where I feel like I'm about to be sick or I'll experience tachycardia, like when I stand up too long and my POTS reminds me I'm an idiot, when I watch a match. Even ones I don't care who wins. That's not normal for me, though I suppose maybe I've just become so invested? It just doesn't seem healthy, but I'm pissed because I wanted to be on as little meds as possible. It's not just that I don't like drugging myself more than necessary (I've been on meds since I was 13, I'm allowed to dislike them at this point), but that shit's expensive. I'm still on my dad's insurance, and it's still a hell of a lot more than I like paying. And next year, I'll be too old to be covered and have to either go with what's offered at work (if I'm still there) or find my own to cover all that I'm already taking. Why couldn't I be born with a normal brain and body again?

/Rant over.

Ok, done now.
emilita: (Default)
The WC final is an hour and a half away, and I already feel like I'm about to have an anxiety attack.

Please please please let Germany win.
emilita: (Default)
Had a heating pad on my back since I got home at 4. My lower back has been spasming since 10:30 or so this morning.

I have a training tomorrow, so I won't have any groups, which means no paperwork for me to do until Monday. I'm so happy :). Paperwork (and all the bureaucracy and redundancies that go with it) is easily the worst thing about this job.

Still over the moon that Madrid did not let in any goals for the month of January!!!
emilita: (pic#)
Ok, maybe slight exaggeration, but I absolutely hate that feeling. I refuse to get sick again, so this better just be because of cat hair.

Work's been pretty spiffy recently. No huge accidents or anything (knock on wood), no one behaving horribly, and no one has hit on me recently. Real Madrid has not lost or conceded a goal in 2014, and Varane might make his comeback in the weekend match.

Oh, and last Tuesday when I was at the house, a client from another day program introduced himself to me, and then promptly said that I might as well call him a penguin. He was a really fun dude in general, just really nice, even if he did talk about penguins the entire time I was helping him with his lunch.
emilita: (Default)
Apparently MD was not prepared for the snow today. Work was closed, but whenever that happens, the rehab counselors get assigned to go to different group houses to work during the day. Getting there was fine because it hadn't started snowing yet, but at the end of my shift, I took two of the clients out to the CVS to get cigarettes and coffee and such. Off and on the entire way there and back, there was this horrible grinding and a light kept blinking on my dash. I seemed to lose all traction at those points. When going around a corner at something like 5mph, I fishtailed and thought I would either hit the car waiting for the light or end up in someone's front yard. As it is, one of the cars in that line honked at me, like I couldn't figure out for myself that this wasn't what the car was supposed to be doing.

I told my dad what happened, and he first thought we needed to get it to the shop, but after he read the manual and tried it himself, he thinks that it was the anti-lock brake system and the traction control coming on and making it sound like the engine was dying. Apparently a normal sound. I'm still kind of queasy and shaky from the drive, despite the fact that it was close to six hours ago. I just remember it and all the anxiety comes rushing back. Ugh.

On the plus side, Real Madrid has not conceded a goal this year and we keep winning! And Chelsea won, but Torres got hurt and now I'm sad again.
emilita: (Default)
In the last several weeks, I've found an Ozil jersey from last season, a Raul jersey from 2007-2008, and a really nifty RM shirt. Good haul, Em, good haul.

Also, HI! I know I've been absent. I've had things in my head that I've wanted to post and talk about, but never ended up doing it. As with most absences, I was still around to read fairly often, but was incredibly lazy with posting. Work has been draining but rewarding, and now that Problem Client is gone, it's been more rewarding than not. At the same time, if I don't take a day soon, I'm going to get burnt out real fast. To be honest, the company is one where, if I didn't like what I was doing, I wouldn't recommend the job. The bureaucracy, red tape, and general ridiculousness drives me up the wall. But right now, I've been here six months and don't want to leave, so that's something.
emilita: (Default)
I forgot that I hadn't posted it here, but I have a job! And it's even in my field! I now work for Mosaic Community Services, a non-profit specializing in mental health and addiction. I'm a psychiatric rehabilitation counselor (not a therapist, so I don't have to be licensed), running groups and managing a case load of 18 people. My big job is running the groups, but I also work with my 18 clients to come up with goals and help them try to reach them. I've been working for 3 weeks (tomorrow is my fourth Monday there) and I'm already a little worn down. I understand even more now why there's so much burnout and such a high turn over rate in this field.

Currently watching the USA v. El Salvador right now. If I could, I would be downtown watching it live (because it's at our football field, dammit!), but I already got to go to the USA v. Germany friendly in DC at the beginning of June.

I also recently rewatched the entirety of Kamen Rider Double/W, and finally finished Kamen Rider OOO. I'd put it off for so long, and I was appropriately heart broken by the ending. Also, I've become a huge fan of Miura Ryosuke because of this. I've seen a bit of Fourze, but I'm not as interested in it or Wizard as I was with the other two. I'll give them a chance, though.
emilita: (Default)
I JUST SCREAMED OK!!!!

VARANE VARANE HE'S OUR MAN!
emilita: (Default)
I will kiss Varane on the lips, no lie. My stream died, only for me to get a new one JUST AFTER FCB SCORED. I was so pissed.
emilita: (Default)
Varane is proving his worth, that's all I can say. He and Carvalho work well together. Even if this isn't our usual starting defense, they're no slouches against Barca.
emilita: (Default)
Ok, well at least Madrid is starting out strong. It's just 90 minutes, Emily, we can do it.
emilita: (Default)
I’m shaking, I’m so nervous! God, why another clasico? ”Never loses it’s luster,” REALLY. I got over these a long time ago, just saying.

These commentators just can't get enough of this, and I just want it to be over.
emilita: (Default)
I know it's late (a month late for any Canadians), but I'd like to wish my followers a happy Thanksgiving! I haven't been the healthiest this year, and I've definitely become an even bigger introvert, but I have my family, I have my friends, I have my cats, my parents have jobs (even if my mom's is pending), and I have my teams, which I alternatively think of as a blessing and a curse. You should have heard me yesterday when Rafa came to Chelsea, I didn't know whether to smile or cry, because will this be a success or just make LFC fans hate Chelsea (I like both, can't I just be happy?!) Anyway! I also graduated, so I definitely think we're at a net positive :).

Welp

Nov. 10th, 2012 11:13 pm
emilita: (Default)
DC United is going to the Eastern Conference Championship! That game versus the New York Red Bulls was one of the more extraordinary MLS games I've ever seen. Both of the teams were going all out, it was great to watch. I do feel bad for Bill Hamid, as he seemed to be so sure the the NY player dived and he had been such a hero throughout the season, and I felt awful for the back-up goalkeeper to come in to save a penalty like that. Made me think of the game 2 seasons ago (I think?) when Iker got kicked out, and Adan came in to save the penalty. This guy didn't save the first pen, but the ref made them retake it because of encroachment, and he saved the second. And then DC pulled ahead and it was all over. Beautiful.

I may get to see Skyfall tomorrow, too! I already ship 00Q, basically since the trailer, it's bad. Maybe it'll give me something more to think about than Sernando once I see it :P.
emilita: (Default)
I'm still so tired for staying up so late last night! With the dishes and other chores, I didn't go to bed until past 4. This wouldn't have been a problem, previously, but I've actually had a decent sleep schedule recently (meaning I go to bed at around 1...). But Maryland approved same-sex marriage!!! We'd technically already had a law on the books, but when it passed, the religious right protested so much and got Congresspeople behind them, so the Governor and Congress agreed to let it go to referendum. And we became the first state to ratify a law by popular vote! We also passed the DREAM Act, so that's good news for students of illegal immigrants. I just... I could have cried when I changed the channel and saw that Obama had reached 274 electoral votes. My dad actually did get choked up. We were honestly so scared about the way the country would have gone if Mitt Romney were elected. It wouldn't have been terrible if it were the Romney of 8 years ago, though I still would have preferred Obama. But the Tea Party has the Republican party hostage, and it's been sick watching the TPs get more and more power. Who knows, Obama has nothing to lose now. Maybe he'll just bulldoze forward and drag Congress along behind him...

Games today: Chelsea vs. Shaktar Donetsk, DC United vs. NY Red Bulls postponed until tomorrow because of blizzard conditions, Sporting Kansas City vs. Houston Dynamo came on in it's place, and LA Galaxy vs. SJ Earthquakes. Chelsea was a fucking amazing game, and Torres scored! He had a couple really promising moments throughout the game, but the Shaktar players just swarmed him. They were top quality tonight, which surprised me, because, Ukraine? Ukraine doesn't have an impressive league. But they were great, really took it to Chelsea and the match was really a tug of war. And then I turned on the MLS Cup matches...
emilita: (Default)
Ahhh, that Champions League game almost killed me! It sucked how Cristiano really couldn't get on the ball without 5 players surrounding him. I do wish that the commentators would stop talking about how the egos on the team cause trouble, when, guess what, the "journalists" and commentators are the ones trying to create headlines and problems. And I wish that they would stop exaggerating Ronaldo's reactions. He never threw a tantrum, he's not a child. He does yell, he does gesticulate, but using words like tantrum just helps spread the idea that he's immature, and he's not. That's not what his behavior shows. Ugh. Make it stop.

But, yeah, Borussia was just everywhere, and we didn't wake up until the 2nd half. We were sloppy, and Higuain shouldn't have been out there. Maybe he hurt himself when he challenged the goalkeeper in the opening minutes, who knows. Thankfully, the 2nd half brought Callejon and Kaka to liven things up, and make the game beautiful again.

Small rant

Nov. 3rd, 2012 09:46 pm
emilita: (Default)
I love DC United and LA Galaxy, but I swear, I can't wait to see when MLS actually gets to the level of European soccer. It's good for us that we're bringing in talent like Beckham, Henry, and Arnie Friedrich, even if they are older, and we are keeping players like Landon Donovan, who feel loyal to MLS and want it to succeed, because we need that quality. But I can't take it seriously when the form is so... not there sometimes. Other times, it can be pretty good, like with LA Galaxy, they're rather consistent, but they aren't MY team.

Sorry, I'm watching the MLS Cup Playoffs - Eastern Conference Semifinal Leg 1 - and just really wanting DC to have more consistent form. It hurts how often if can falter.

Oh, and Real's win today? Sweeeet. But Cristiano was pissed at the end :(. He was unlucky, especially during the first half, but I think he was more furious at himself than anything. Uuugh, baby!
emilita: (Default)
So, went out and got The Awakened Mage (Innocence Lost outside the US/UK) last Friday, finished it on Tuesday. On Tuesday, I think I read about 410 pages. Yeesh. All in all, it amounts to 1350 or so in about 8 days. Take that, college drag! I thought I'd have so much trouble getting back into reading, since college has kinda killed it for me in the last couple years, but nope! It was a great book, though the reviews I read were right: she does spend a lot of time on the build up, and then the climax to ending goes by in about 50 pages. The characters broke my heart and only somewhat patched it up, but I understand why she did it. I would recommened these two to people needing something to pass the time; it's not the best thing fantasy has ever given mankind, but the characters and the world are thoroughly enjoyable, engrossing, and original. Even the parts you can see as universal Karen Miller makes her own. Nothing about it is very bland, though the fight scenes could do with some work. I hope someone picks this up, cuz I would love to have someone to talk about it with!

Next up, I've decided, is Sea of Poppies by Amitav Ghosh. This one is historical fiction set in India and the Indian Ocean around the 1830s; a rag-tag group of people come together aboard a ship and come to think of themselves as ship-brothers. Apparently it's the first of a trio, but the rest haven't been released yet. I actually started reading it in a bookstore in Germany, got it that Christmas, and read up to page 100 or so before abandoning it. At this point I've decided just to start over. I'm excited :). I have a list of books I want to look into now (most of them fantasy, I think) and a list of ones I have that I need to read.

To look into:
The Bartimaeus Trilogy
The Dark is Rising
Havemercy
Coldfire Trilogy


To read:
Sea of Poppies
American Gods
Prozac Nation
The Kite Runner
A Thousand Splendid Suns
Slaughterhouse Five
A Long Way Down


...Yeah, there are a lot more I need to get to before I buy anything else. Wish me luck!

Also, got tickets for when Real Madrid comes to play Philadelphia Union on July 23!!! I'm sooooo excited!!! This month is internationals month, especially this week and next week, so that's keeping me busy outside reading and interning with Habitat.

Also recently (two Saturdays ago?) went over to see two of my best friends and watched Doctor Who and Community and slept over. It was awesome. We haven't had a bond session in forever, so we were talking so much we probably didn't get some throw-away line that's going to come back and be what the entire season story line hinges on. I'll be going back to watch it again soon.

Had to go to the doctor's to get a B12 shot today. When my bloodwork was done a couple weeks ago, it showed I was really low in that and it was probably the reason I was so exhausted and why my fibro pains were more annoying than usual. It hurt :( but hopefully that'll help for a week or two. Now the option is either getting that every month or whatever, or taking a big vitamin everyday. Joy, the options I have.

Ummm, I think that's it!

August 2014

S M T W T F S
     1 2
3 4 567 89
1011 1213 141516
171819 202122 23
242526 27282930
31      

Syndicate

RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Jul. 19th, 2025 05:27 pm
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios