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And it started with its typical controversy. Ahhhh, it's been too long.

I've been stressing about whether I should take the possible promotion, and have gotten absolutely nowhere. I just waffle back and forth and can't decide if I'd be able to deal with the pressure and responsibility of dealing with benefits and everything. This is a situation that hasn't even come to fruition yet, and I'm already having anxiety. Yeesh.

I've been making strides in my physical fitness, and while it's encouraging, I'm not seeing as much improvement in the POTS and fibromyalgia symptoms as I wanted. My joints still feel like they're moving around too much, I have random aches and pains, the dizziness and orthostatic intolerance have been steady, and the CFS is still dragging me down. I'm seeing some good things, like I have an increased amount of energy and endurance, but overall it's underwhelming. I'll stick with it though, and I'm working on improving my diet, along with the squat challenge and core workouts. Hopefully, it'll get better, because I'm so tired of dealing with the my body falling apart.

The good news! Cats are back where they belong, and Skids has gotten over his cold and is back to causing trouble. Nothing horrible has happened at work, and we're actually getting raises in October (negligible, but it'll help). I'm... thinking... of moving out soon. It'll be very hard, since the idea of a living wage in public health is a joke, but I've been looking around and doing calculations. We'll see.
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I am so done with being jerked around by airlines, and I no longer want to get my hopes up about ANYTHING, but... one of our professors from college who often goes to Israel/Palestine and is familiar with the airline might have found us a way to get a refund. He was on the phone for several hours after my friend contacted him for tips in dealing with this situation (since he's had airlines fuck up his flights before), and he totally went above and beyond trying to work this out for us. It still has to go through the travel agent, but there's a form on the website specifically for the Tel Aviv issue, and apparently our flight falls within the date range to make a refund viable. How the hell the travel agent missed this is another issue, and one reason I doubt I'll be using one again. I want to believe that he got the run around from the airline just as much as we did, but I don't know what to think. At the moment, I'm just cautiously almost-optimistic. I don't want to jinx anything by giving the universe ways to mess this up, though, so I'll be quiet with my pessimism.

Work's been decent, especially since I know I won't be there next week. I'm still trying to set up an appointment for my psychiatrist to talk about anti-anxiety meds, because even if the anxiety is situational, I'm in a really stressful job, so I get over-anxious a LOT. I always feel like I'm riding just a level below an anxiety attack.

Exercise is kicking my butt. Still on track with the squats, and continuing with the ab exercises, but I'm pretty sure my lack of ab muscles means that I'm putting too much strain on my lower back during said exercises. Who knows, my back muscles may need it, but my abs definitely need it more. The biggest burden of exercising alone is learning how to exercise the right way.
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Nothing absolutely horrible happened at work, so everything's at least ok on that front.

I've been doing this squat challenge thing since last Sunday (I'm on day 9), and it's one of those things that supposed to get you up to 200 squats in 4 weeks. Today, I did 90. It's 3 days of squats and then one day of rest, so it's not one huge push. I've been running and doing other leg/butt exercises as well, and I added core exercises over the last couple days. Right now, I'm under the impression that I've never used my ab muscles ever. This might not be as wrong as it sounds, because the last time I talked to my doctor, he told me that one of the reasons I have back spasms is because I don't have abs to take over some of the work. I'm also working on building up back muscles and improving my posture, but all that's gotten me at the moment is pain. I need to find better ways to fix kyphosis, because trying to straighten it right now is killing me.

Real didn't defend their stupid title and I'm mad at them, though they definitely weren't at their best against Man United. Bring me the regular season, I need distractions from getting fit and working.
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So, we've figured out that one of my conditions comes with an allergy to sulfates? Especially those in shampoos, apparently, because I have these bad breakouts along my hairline. Wonderful, yet another thing to look out for.

I've gotten a third of the way through The Hobbit, so I've gotten up to Beorn. This is not my first time reading it, but I'm having trouble finishing this time. I don't know why. I'm enjoying it while reading, but I don't have the push to pick it up and continue the next day. I hope it's just because I don't want to get to the end, not because I'm going into a slump or anything...
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I know it's late (a month late for any Canadians), but I'd like to wish my followers a happy Thanksgiving! I haven't been the healthiest this year, and I've definitely become an even bigger introvert, but I have my family, I have my friends, I have my cats, my parents have jobs (even if my mom's is pending), and I have my teams, which I alternatively think of as a blessing and a curse. You should have heard me yesterday when Rafa came to Chelsea, I didn't know whether to smile or cry, because will this be a success or just make LFC fans hate Chelsea (I like both, can't I just be happy?!) Anyway! I also graduated, so I definitely think we're at a net positive :).

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